How much more living will it take till I am no longer an angry young man?.... Well.... The answer is now. And you can say it all you want but im there.... ("there ain't no such thing as halfway there")... I got an idea for a string quartet in my head which i am looking forward to writing... right now listening to SHostakovich OP. 34 preludes... wow... good stuff. That deserved a period. Mood shift. I'm feeling like i am really emotional right now but i know that its just due to my life style for the past couple days... Shut up in the house doin last minute final cramming while people in the other room have a video game marathon (god-bless em)... Stir crazy they call it i believe... too much time to think and the mind starts playin its favorite tricks on itself... well so the Holiday is coming up and if there is anything the maturing satisfied 20-something knows, its what he wants [dont forget it] ... i think i was about 14 last time i knew ... so love it. I'm ready to just set sail for the Horizon and not take any pitstops till the mid-life crisis... well thats kinda a joke cause I know how life goes.. Tonight i had a funny thought... it went something like this "an artist is just someone who has faith in his/her own perspective". Interesting thought... but its a rewarding life... that is to create ... there is a lot more to it than what might lead one to believe. wow... man this is amazing ... shostakovich is hypnotizing me... while i memorize my music history notes... and think steadily on the themes... well theres a lesson to remember... focus... weed out all the things that will distract you... they might not all be bad... but you must "take your time"... now thats some shit right there... god bless the one who said that the first time... .lord only knows. well anyhow i have been writting long and i doubt anyone will ever even read this... (i infrequently read others so why would they?) well.... Good night all.