| So ... new entry.... |
[May. 11th, 2005|05:20 pm] |
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I just got back from the daily run from the park... this is the part of the day when i chill out and listen to music and cool off.... it is a very peaceful part of the day, at least for the mind because my body is tired and i am satisfied to finish something simple..... Right now i am thinking about how i would like to write... songs of any type... pieces of any type... Im just drifting and letting such things drift into my reach... from out there in the world ... universe...... |
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[May. 11th, 2005|07:31 pm] |
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wow.... so i just got a suprise hit. I was talkin to my mom about school and how i was doin really well..... (they're are payin me to be here) and my music is coming along so well. And i was talkin about how my hours are halfway to graduation.... and I said "yea halfway there ... i just gotta make sure to get all the classes i need." and she says..... "if you dont change your major.. haha" in a voice that was ... "grown up" and psuedo-wise. I said "don't worry, I'm not." and she says with a now suprised/irritated voice "youre not ?" Like..."no mom, me down here working my ass off at what i love is not some kind of a funny little joke or some kind of a charade that i am playing for 2 years so i can reveal the serious, square, real me that neatly fits into a suburban home......." wow ... im gettin a little emotional. I have no qualms with everyday life or the american middle class... but i just do day to day what i feel like I have to do.... i don't do the things i do out of some rebellious little experiment. I think i will find my way to happy grown-up-ness but damn.... it's really hard to explain. All my life i have had a passion... it has changed about 2 or three times... music has always been there though... but while all the other kids were playin the usual games or watching tv or trading things or talking about the other other kids.... i was lost in a world of learning and loving what i did.... lost in fascination... and thats somethin i don't think i could ever change about myself. Thats the bottom line fundamental of what i think i am.... thats the first thing i see in the mirror... and i just wanna find a way that i can do that plus pull the weight of keeping the crazy people that i love from going crazy.... sometimes i just don't know how i get the strength to be happy... but i know it's there.... |
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| Hunter S. Thompson Quotes |
[May. 11th, 2005|08:07 pm] |
"A word to the wise is infuriating."
"Call on God, but row away from the rocks."
"I have a theory that the truth is never told during the nine-to-five hours."
"I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone, but they've always worked for me."
"I have a theory that the truth is never told during the nine-to-five hours."
"America...just a nation of two hundred million used car salesmen with all the money we need to buy guns and no qualms about killing anybody else in the world who tries to make us uncomfortable."
"No man is so foolish but he may sometimes give another good counsel, and no man so wise that he may not easily err if he takes no other counsel than his own. He that is taught only by himself has a fool for a master."
"The music business is a cruel and shallow money trench, a long plastic hallway where thieves and pimps run free, and good men die like dogs. There's also a negative side." |
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